Embarrassing Moments

I do stupid stuff a lot... like A LOT A LOT!  I can't tell you how many times I have sent dumb DUMB text messages to dumb people, when I am feeling dumb.... or FB peopled more than I should have.... or just done something dumb.  That being said, it is rare that I get embarrassed by these dumb actions or let these dumb actions haunt me.  Don't get me wrong initially it happens and I am red faced and embarrassed but it passes, but when they don't pass that's when I get angry.

I hate, HATE when a guy makes you embarrassed and you can't shake it.  Like when every time you think about it you get the dumb chills or dread the day you accidentally run into them, or have to run into them.  I only have a few of those events in my life maybe 3 or 4, but it makes me really angry for some reason.  I did something dumb I get that, but it usually takes two to tango so if there is someone else in the situation who is continuing to make me feel dumb, I get really angry.  Now this is not them making fun of me, because chances are I deserve it and can take it.  What makes me angry embarrassed is when they are either arrogant about something or embarrassed for you.  Like they are looking down from their sky high chamber and feeling bad for the peon below.

Now I haven't had a situation like this for a while, and thankfully am currently not embarrassed about anything (although there is one event I have a twinge of embarrassment about and depending on a arrogant man's reaction in an interaction in the future will determine whether the twinge passes or turns to anger).

What it comes down to is probably that I am angry I did something dumb, and I am embarrassed about it and mad that this person keeps making me feel embarrassed, when in reality I tend to not be embarrassed... I guess the moral of the story is my embarrassment turns into anger.

Peace, Love, Flowers
Lisi

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